sooooo this weekend was a complete and utter wash. i probably ate ten pounds of junk food in this one weekend. the problem is that i don’t have a life, and i don’t know where to get one from! i am afraid i’m spiraling back into depression…o_O really why can’t i be normal
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however, i am still on my couch to 5k training regimen. repeating week 2, since last week was a wash. but i don’t even feel sad/upset/depressed about that. i just see it as another challenge. and i WILL persevere over my body.
except that i had half a ciggarrette and beer at the lynryd skynrd/kid rock concert on friday. REALLY miss the ciggs when i drink. but i’ve done a pretty good job of nixing liquor, beer, coffee/fake sugar from my diet. and i am still proud of myself for those things. apparently that’s all i can control. for some reason i just cannot stop eating. and i hate myself when i eat. <head in hands>
almost finished with the protective hair challenge. and my hair is gorgeous! it is sooooo long. and when its wet it is sooo curly. but it dries into puffy frizz. florida humidity does not want me to have curly hair. oh well.
exchanged the shoes, and got inserts to go in them. ended up spending an extra $50 on top of the $63 for the original shoes. sigh. add that to the pile, bleeding money.
apologies for the disconnected post.
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